Moms..

Ok so I REALLY like this guy Champ and my mom doesn't like him.. Of corse. She said because she and both my brothers and my bestfriend kaylee doesn't like him nether should I. Ok I think that is like really stupid. She can't tell me who I can and can't like. She can't tell me how to feel. First of all she will never like a guy I do and my brothers don't really care and my bestfriend only likes guys that have 6packs so it's never gunna happen, they are never gunna like someone I do. I was unset so my oldest brother Alex toke me to sonic and I ask him if he has ever liked someone mom doesn't and he said yeah why and I just said champ.. And he gave me advise to ignore mom cuz she can't tell me how to feel and it's really not up to her so me and him went back home and I was all happy and my mom kept asking what did alex do to make me happy and I just said that he should be happy I'm happy.

LIFE SUCKS!

Ugh! Don't you just love friends? tff... They are so annoying!

So yeah I get on a lot of "fights" with this one flipping girl. Than she comes back begging on her knees saying she say stupid and how I'm a great friend. I'm just flippin sick of it! It is so flippin hard to be nice sometimes! She ALWAYS steals MY ideas! like my hair cut (She did that twice) Boys I like (twice!) How I did my stinkin profile pic on facebook!! Than she goes off and has a lil melt down so all the youth leaders say we should make up. Iv'e done that two times! I just tired of it! We will never be friends! It is just not gonna happen!

The Real Me

Most of my friends don't know the real me so here it is..

I was born in Georgia (big town). Raised in a small town in North Carolina, for 8years. Everything felt perfect when I was there like nothing could ever go wrong. No one could pop my bubble. Then my dad rein listed and my whole world turned upside down. Moved to Texas on a military post. Where every house looks the same. No one is smiling and no one makes eye contact. BIG differences from North Carolina. Where every one knew each other and everyone was smiling. It was hard to get use to it. I've been here for almost two years. Most of the kids here are BRATS! Like I'm not even kidding they all think there life is worse. My two friends got into a fight just saying who's life was worse I was like "Really? Your kidding right?" It was annoying. We all have suckish life's we don't need to fight about it!

I use to be this sweet little country girl. Now I'm this mean jerk girl (yes I did just call my self a jerk). I'm mean I know I am. It is just me though it is just how I am. I fight for what I believe. I'm hard headed (as I've been told). Most here don't even know the real me. I can be a sweet little country girl that is just the sweetest thing ever. Get on my bad side you are not gonna like me. My mom is the same way. It runs in the family. I can be nice or a can be a HUGE jerk. I let you chose which one you want to deal with.

Boys...

I'm not allowed to date. If it was up to my mom we will never date...EVER.

Although I can't help but like guys. I like three, as of right now. There is "C" "K" and "T".

"C" - is nice and sweet and cute. Short hair orange..ish and brown eyes. Taller then me. I only see him once a week. Moving soon.

"K" - is cute and super funny and super short...lol. Cant explain his hair it is just awesome and brown eyes Like I said "super short". I see him three times a week. Just moved here. I think.

"T" - is quite but super cute. Brown (long) hair brown eyes My height . I see him two maybe three (depends on his grades so he can play football) times a week. Just moved here. I think.

Just noticed I like brown eyes :) haha

My mom is not to happy about all this boy stuff but what mom is?

I don't know if this is just me, but I feel like it is easier to be friends with dudes than chicks.
All my friends are like "How do you just walk up to them and talk?" I just don't have that nerves thing when I'm with dudes. I'm just...Cool around them. Although some guys don't understand that and they think I like them. Than it becomes awkward... very awkward. Because sometimes they think you like them when you don't and they don't like you so they just stop talking to you, Or When they think you like them when you don't and they like you and start flirting with you (That's when it gets really awkward). :/

All the girl here and I do mean ALL of them. They are so dramatic and it just gets really annoying. Some of them you can deal with but sometimes you just gotta move on and leave them and the drama behind. I've had to do that a lot. It is hard because you just feel empty with out the drama and you don;t know if it is a good or bad feeling. When you just got away from the drama you may feel that and just start up more drama. That is why it is so hard to get out of all of it. Deep down in you, you just know you have to though.

It is very hard being a "Tween" -(Pre Teen)-. There is a lot of drama and school. Like I'm doing pre algebra and honors in it two. Normally you do a lesson a week than a test at the end of the week but nooooo. We do a lesson and a test and honor for that lesson in a day. I do get A+ but still that is a lot to learn. My mom thinks if I'm thinking of school I wont be thinking of boys. Yes that is true but it is not fun always thinking of school. It sucks.

This blog is school, Not saying I have to do this I just enjoy writing.
My mom doesn't even know that. She thinks I hate writing Well that is partly true I do hate really "Writing" like on paper, But I love blogging because no one knows who you are and you can just say everything you need to just get it out and no one will look at you weird.
I like getting away from the "real world" and just going to some where where I can just pore out everything, So like I said this is partly school but I love doing this.

Life

Life can be hard. Some say I'm strong because they never see me cry. Truth is I cry a lot. I just don't like to brother others with all my life "stuff". They are all in the army so there dad is deployed and most have some family stuff going on.
I try to be that person they can come to if they need help. I'm a better listener than a talker.
Yes I do sometimes get tired of all the drama so I put my phone down and just get away from the world. It works though. I do go though a lot. Most of my friends have left me (Not like moved away but just left me to go though this by myself). Some times I feel like I'm fight this fight by myself. Because of my personalty I don't like to tell others what I am going though. This is one of the reasons I have this blog :)

New Me. New Blog (kinda).

I've changed a lot scene the last time I was on here. I'm not that little girl that is weak and needs help with everything. My dad is deployed I've learned that I need to be able to stand up for myself.

There was this guy that broke my heart. I don't regret that at all. From that I've learned that I don't need boys at 12 years old all I need is god. I still have crush's though. Every girl has a crush.

I am very emotional or so I've been told. I can't help it though.

My personalty is I'm a leader (bossy) and I'm emotional and I'm convinced that no one understand's me (kinda the reason I have this blog now so hopefully some can understand what goes on in my mind.

My first plane ride by my self

Day 1


3:00am Daddy got home and got in two bed with me and Momma. His alarm went off at 4:00am and went off every five minutes. At 4:25 I asked if we could git up and they said i can go git dressed and they would git up in 5 minutes. I went and got dressed and went back in there room and pulled off there covers. and they got up and we went down stairs and had bravest with daddy. i had Cheerios and daddy had Boston cream pie yogurt. We watched the news. and I packed the last little things. Then we left for the airport. It was a very small airport. daddy forgot his ID so he could not go throw security with me but momma could. while we were waiting we sat by a lady and i told her i was scared cuzz i would be alone and she said that the big guy (God) was with me and would sit right beside me and have his arm around me. the whole time. and momma said now sometimes god has two send a angel for me two listen. she was in the army but she said she dose not like two travel in uniform cuzz some people just look at her weird. I had two git on the plane last so a air port worker could walk me on. when I got on i sat my a nice old lady. when ever I got butterflies she would talk two me si i wouls stop thinking about it. a Man brote the 1# class snakes i had chips and a apple. and a coke. Thin I had a nap. When i woke up the plane was landing. when i got off the plane they made me sit behine the desk till my grandparints came two git me. 35 minutes later thay came we wint two git my bag and thin we left on the way back we wint two golden corral for lunch. then we were on are way home and I unpacked and grandma gave me 7 benni babys my favrits is my birthday bear with is green after I got that I had dinner and went two bed at 9:00 pm.

American Idol

One thing to do when I get old enough is to go on American Idol and Win. Even if I have two go on a million times...

While I was in the car one of my favorite songs came on. Selena Gomez naturally. Of course I was singing along to it. When I was signing I was just thinking that I was a good singer. I am NOT trying to brag it is just true.

North Carolina

Well isn't moving just fun.... NOT well it kinda is but doing all that work is just tiring don't you think??? It is funny be cause we are going to Fort Hood TX. We just fond out Wednesday . I all ready new before we got orders. We were going to TX. Cause I had dreams about it a month ago. God just told me a head of time... I just cant believe that we have to leave in two weeks. To head North Carolina. It just seem like we were living hear. Now we are moving again but we are still in the same move. Sometimes I wish that this thing would just hurry up. Thin I just remember that God said. That he has a plain for every one on this earth.

Plans Going Wrong

Don't you just love it when you make plans and they are canceled? God makes a new better plan. Kinda like this one:

I was so excited because my friends birthday was coming up. Every time I would go over there I would forget to ask her mom if I could spend the night. When I finely got to ask she said no. Not in a mean way. It was just that my friend has a friend that there birthdays were on the same day. They were going to have a girls day out together. The next day my grandma said that my cousin's birthday was soon. She invited me to get our nails done together, go to the movies to see The Tooth Fairy, and go to eat at CiCi's pizza then spend the night. I said no. What? Do you really think I would say no. Cf course I said YES. It is Friday I get to go on Saturday that is tomorrow... I still need to get her a present. We only go to Wal-mart on Saturday. That is ok because I can not go over there till 4:30. We would still have time to go. I am still wondering why she would want her nails done. She is just not the type of girl to want to get her nails done. It doesn't matter, I am still happy that she invited me :)

Wii Fit

I was playing wii fit. There was a relax game. My brother score was 91. He said if I could not beat his score. He could play. The only reason he said that was because I was doing bad. I said OK. My score was 180. He got so mad he blocked the TV. I could not play. Finely he moved. I did it again. I came in First again. Now he was in third. Now he does not want to play. No one can see that I beat his score. Now he is just watching Pokemon. He has his head tilted like a dog. His eyes are so BIG. It is just so funny. Some girls would be embarresed to be his sister. I think he is awesome. Now he is up side down with his leg were his head should be :)

Friends

My Mom and Dad said that since we are in the process of moving and going in to the Army I will be making a lot of new friend's kind of like when...

We came to Florida my Mom told me to go outside and make some new friend's when I went out side on my bike I saw a girl I was shy so I just rode my bike back and forth waitng for me to just go over there. So I saw a cat and so the cat just came over there to me so I pet it and the girl came over and we just started to talk and finally we were just playing together so then I had to go home and the next day I went over there and there were two girls so I just played with both of them. After a few weeks of going over there I started to notice that whoever she was with she would act like them so it was hard to be her friend. When I decided to go back over there I forgot what we were talking about. I was talking aboult my dad and she said that I don't have one so I just did not go over there then one day she came over and my dad and mom were outside. We came in through our fence and I said I told you I have a dad so after that me and her played but I did not really go over there anymore. My mom said to me like every day what is wrong are you and your friend in a fight or something. I just said no after a month or so I decided to go outside and make a new friend. I came home with none so after a few days my brother made a new friend he said his friend had a sister he said she was my age which is ten so I went over there and she was eight so I just decided to play with her and now she is my best friend like ever. I go over there almost every day.